So I sat down by myself at the table and I quite enjoyed it however it really did not make my day any better or worse than it may otherwise have been.
Early on in the PCP I felt like I was missing out on the full fun of social situations by not eating what everyone else was eating.
I think I have been relying on food too much as a reward or treat or comfort and as it is none of these things it does not satisfy and leaves me wanting more - or so it did.
I'm feeling a little sick now from the sugar and wish I had only half of the square.
Off to get a glass of water will write more tomorrow.
Lemon square sounds great! The fact that you weren't craving it and didn't seem to really want or need it is even better! Your internal dialogue about food is clearly shifting!
ReplyDeleteThis is what indulgences are all about. Learning that food just isn't ALL THAT.
ReplyDeleteIt's really all relative. We don't need all that fattening sugary stuff but I'm sure our brains get used to it and want something even more savory or sweet. You're kinda resetting yourself. I think if you gave some of the stuff we eat to a person who lived 10,000 years ago they would have a heart attack from the extreme tastes we deal with (and are desensitized to) today.
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